The symbol of hope and dreams...

Being an MO...

2009-06-13T12:07:00.006+08:00

SMC Registration... our first step to being an MO!

1 month plus a bit into MO-ship now.
Exciting journey, lots to learn!
Lots of screw ups, not unexpected.
Lots of exasperation over the bosses faces.
(both anaesthetist n surgeons!)
"Baby MOs" is the answer for everything.

2 stitches a minute - I need to double that rate.
Imperfect opposition of skin - I need practice.
Dunno how to hold camera for lap chole - need to improve my 3D orientation.
Intention tremors - stay away from caffiene?

Going to be HD MO soon.
Manage sick patients? - I still dunno how.
Answering questions at M&M - this one is tough!

Despite all that, I'm thankful for nice bosses, nice seniors n nice colleagues.

Hanging in there, making every move carefully.

In this game, there is little room for error!

Need to jia you!

Finally... the changeover.

2009-05-10T21:30:00.013+08:00

I just realized that the posts that I wrote in NZland apparently hav not been published for some reason! Maybe I shut off my IE too quickly or sthing, or the internet connection for some reason was just bad.
Anywayz, NZland was fun! As are all holidays right? ;)
Despite the rather lack of preparation according to Jo (though I she did a very good job!), everything went quite smoothly and we didn't lose our way, reached all the places we wanted to reach on time, and had fun! I guess the only regret is that we didn't get to go skydiving due to poor weather... ah well... next time maybe =) And I still don't understand why the immigration officer had so much problem believing that I AM a doctor!
Our trip took us from Christchurch to the pretty blue glaciers, then down south to Wanaka in Queenstown where we got to go bungy jumping, then through pretty lake Te Anau to the over-rated Milford Sound. Due to time constraints we decided to skip Dunedin and go back north towards Mt Cook and Lake Tekapo, before returning to Christchurch.
Since I've already uploaded some photos to fb, shall not flood this page with photos. Just the highlights...

1) Glacier Trekking... It was fun! First time I'm using crampons... which are a god-send on the ice.

2) The chicken that Kenny chopped up for dinner. Haha, bcos I'm totally hopeless at de-boning chicken myself. Also explains why I always eat popcorn chicken from KFC.

3) Bungy! We did it! In the rain somemore... haha =)

4) Sashimi. Eaten fresh in the Salmon farm. yum =)

5) Kitty Cat!! Somehow there seem to b plenty of them in NZland... n they r NOT the irritating kind. So cute right?? This one lived on the salmon farm, ate sashimi daily. We saw another one at wanakabakpaka, who ate up the fatty bits of our meat.

6) Feeding the ducks at Glenorchy. One of the few times we took advantage of the break in between the endless showers to get out of the car. As I lured the ducks nearer and nearer the car with bread, K plotted how to catch one for dinner!

7) Mushrooms! or Whatever they are called! These must b the really poisonous ones that start with "A" that block the acetylcholine receptors or sthing n kill u in a few minutes?

8)I got to see an iceberg!!!! Yes its a tiny one... but still... its the first iceberg I've seen! Going to Antartica is definitely on my bucket list.

9) I can't even remember how many afternoons we spent just lazing around by the lakes and not doing anything - the perfect holiday. Nice and cool weather, autumn leaves falling, NO mosquitos (though I think there were other bugs)... so different from rushing to grab case files, take blood, do discharge summaries, asking for urgent scans...

10) And so all good things must come to an end. Holidays too. As we landed at Terminal three and waited for the skytrain... we grumbled about how we would STILL have to do changes... and STILL have to do HO calls... *sigh*

Life goes on...

End of HO-ship!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-04-19T17:13:00.007+08:00

Yay!!!!!!!!!!! *jump jump jump*

I think I won't be seeing this corridoor for quite a while...

It felt so good not to have to wake up for rounds, or to have my work phone ringing at all!!! I'm goin 2b away from the hospital for a good period of time, before I get back in to the world more GS hopefully without having to take blood, set plugs and deal with horrible nonsense like patient's pulling out IDCs or plugs at 2am!! *grinz*

I guess HO life had its good times as well, like slacking in the HO room with single digit team lists, or going out for the occassional lunches and coffee at Highlander.

Even though the HO room is super messy with plugs and paper all over the place + umlimited

tubes of PR jelly... I guess I will still miss being there, especially since the printer finally works!!!

(see... Louis is one of the most common ppl seen in that position... pm nap)

And because things like "hardship postings" existed aka colorectal + team 1, we also made good friends who we would share BIG 21 inch pizzas with =)
I also won't forget the postcall liver harvesting at TTSH, definitely one of the highlights of my HO life. (not falling asleep while holding retractor is a skill I still need to work on!)

Haha... I get so excited at every little thing... Its a phase thing.

On my last call, I noticed that me and Kenny spent a considerable amount of time in the HO room. Hopefully it is a reflection we have gotten more efficient over the year that we finally find time to sleep on call. Haha... he is the first person I've been on call with who actually turns off all the lights including the computer screen!!! haha~ I must confess I slept well.

Kenny says I keep laughing at everything he says...

So... to end it all off, we had breakfast at 0645hrs on our last call =)

Just as we got our food, I received an sms "we round in 10 mins ok?" Lucky I printed the list before breakfast... so we had 10mins to gulp down the PO albumin + kaya toast + milo.

The tragic life of a HO...

Anyway....I'm going on holiday!!!! (once I clear my part1...)

Hopefully when I return to the centre of excellence next month... this sign at the lift lobby will be gone =)

Don't believe what it says.

Pretti Pink~

2009-03-17T10:39:00.002+08:00

Me has a new PINK sony VAIO!!! yay!!!!!!!!!!!

which is like worth one month's salary but is totally worth it bcos it is the best thing that has happened this month... this very horrible month that I just can't wait for it to be over. (Ok we shall not talk about it further)

I wish I have more time to play with it.... Photos will come eventually... hopefully uploaded from my new laptop!

Big thank you to YOU for helping me with the whole process of acquiring + carrying my pretty pink toy since I've been craving and whining about it for... a few months I think.

Buy u bubbletea next time ;)

colorectal.

2009-03-07T12:26:00.001+08:00

Every day I wonder why I am doing what I am doing.

Life in GS.

2009-02-03T21:02:00.003+08:00

Its been over a month since I last updated my blog, and I can only say it is because GS has left me tired. drained. pining for leave.
I guess starting a new posting is always difficult, but since its my final HO posting, I didn't expect it to be THIS difficult.
I started out January in team 4, and it was generally not too bad as the CNY month meant fewer electives than usual, and not too much damage to the team list. However, I saw more BGITs in January than I ever saw in the rest of my life. (apparently BGIT is the common thing in GS). The good thing was, I had really nice consultants who were rather easy going and approchable, and I made an effort to put watever I learned from ortho about updating lists into use. I also survived my first GS call with 5 hours of sleep, way more than I expected, and a great achievement especially since I cried so bad on my first ortho call, and trembled so bad before GS call. Maybe we've all grown as HOs! haha~ (the subsequent GS calls were not that great... but u know, the first is always the one which gives u tachycardia and insomnia)

So now February has arrived, rudely.
Being in Team 6 meant more patients, more work, more rules, stricter consultants, longer hours, less/no weekends off....
hai~

In the centre of excellence, patient expectations are high. Things will always be stat, people are pushed to the limits, miracles happen, thereby creating new/higher standards and expectations. It is a place where the weak do not survive, where everyone struggles to stay in the game, mistakes can be deadly.

Maybe I am not suited for life like that. Maybe I am really a kampung girl at heart.
At the end of the day, I still miss sitting next to the koi pond, feeding the leftover bits of my Mr. Bean pancake to the fishes, and watching the world go by.

Having written all of the above, I suddenly find my situation awfully similar to the characters in the drama serial I recently watched, about a few friends who left their little village to seek "a better life" in Taipei. Haha~

The last few days of ortho......

2009-01-01T22:22:00.007+08:00

So... I did call on my birthday!!!! A big achievement for someone who has never done any productive work on her birthday.

The day started off well.... with me havin a ridiculously good list with time to go into OT scrubbing up next to a plastic surgeon! How cool is that! =) Of cos I fumbled like crazy when he told me to tear off the number one tab on the plastic thingy you use for VAC dressing.... haha.... But thankfully he was really nice! =)

And when I came out of OT... I was treated to a nice surprise =) My chocolate bday cake!!!!!!!!! =) Thank you to all my fellow HOs for the nice surprise!!!!!! ;)

I think N-de was kindof jealous of my ridiculously good list..... haha~

After a nice long afternoon nap, call started rather uneventfully. And I must say I really didn't have much work to do, no collapses, no sickies... and I set 2 plugs the whole night, how cool is that! There was this patient which had Hb6.2, and I was supposed to keep Hb>8. After 1 pint of PCT, Hb went up to 8.6! How cool is that! no need to call BTSMO anymore! *grinz* Its called birthday luck I believe....Haha. I also had nice MOs and nice registrars on that day... and I got chicken without bones for dinner!

Post call, we had a super long and good breakfast at... *drumroll*.......

so cool right. That is how December should be =)

Also had the chance to meet up with my darlin RGS gals..... after like so so so long bcos it is super difficult to fit our gatherings into SOMEBODY's timetable bcos she is busy goin round Singapore in a GOLDEN BMW. *ahem*

Ask her for more details.

So.... here comes 2009. New posting, new people, new work. Jia you everyone! ;)

December 2008

2008-12-28T23:29:00.011+08:00

The month is almost coming to an end. So fast...

It wasn't that long ago I was eating my fill of strawberries on the 1st of December in Melbourne!
This December, compared to the rest, is just so quiet, so wierd.
WE ARE ALL FAMILY, WHY MUST THINGS BE SO HOSTILE AND WIERD??? HOW DID THINGS END UP LIKE THIS??? IS THERE REALLY NO BETTER RESOLUTION??? AND FOR HEAVENS SAKE I AM NEARLY TWENTY-FOUR AND OLD ENOUGH TO DECIDE WHO I SHOULD HANG OUT WITH!!!
what happened to the days where we played piano next to the Christmas tree, refused to go home bcos we wanted to finish the next episode of death note, and spent just like one hour giving out christmas prezzies bcos there were JUST SO MANY!
Ok enough of the nonsense...
I shall just concentrate on all the good things that happened in December =)

The last day where all Three Team 4 HOs were at work...

Christmas Eve got 1/2 day! So we finally had our team 4 outing...

Darling Chengsi finally flew back and we went to try specs on Christmas day! So funky right... at good ol' uncle Koh's shop in Parkway parade... =)

My new look... actually not bad leh! Heh~

And my long time good friend + CG mate bought me dinner!!! yumyum pizza~

Ben & Jerrys to complete the night. Having a weekend off is total luxury. And when we meet, it is still always the same topics of nurses, MOs, Regs, ACs, Cons... blah blah blah...

Haha~ some things never change.

Ok lar... sometimes my sister can be quite sweet...

And my cousins too! Here's my bday cake! =)
After having a little bit to drink....

Hope the last few days of December will bring more peace, love and joy =)

And hope my bday wish will come true!!!!!

*grinz*

Christmas Eve...

2008-12-24T22:18:00.002+08:00

Its Christmas Eve.
Christmas eve this year feels so... wierd. Feels so... lonely.

I'm sitting at home watching DVDs, but somehow not really laughing.
MSN seems empty, its so wierd.

I can't really recall what I spent christmas eve last year doing... maybe I wasn't so emo.
sigh.

May Christmas day be a better day.
Chengsi + chengyi dearies... I miss you!!!!! When r u guys comin back?!?!?!?!
*wails*

December rocks.

2008-12-18T21:58:00.005+08:00

Even though I have a 40+ patient ward round list, December still rocks, bcos Christmas is coming and my birthday is coming!!! =) The disturbing part is that I'm reaching my mid-twenties soon. Not good. Too old. With one last take for the month, we will survive =)

I still vividly remember my first horrible CGH ortho call that left me crying so bad so many times throughout the night. bleah~ Looking bad, that call was actually not bad bcos I admitted all finger cases. But then... at that time I didn't even know open fracture supposed to start cefa genta, so stupid right. But like with all calls, the sun still rose and I still survived. =)

Now... I'm not sure I'm ready to leave my comfort zone and move to surgery... hmmm....

So ortho HO farewell came and went. Food was not that fantastic but company was good. This is the nicest photo of the lot! (in terms of lighting and number of people looking at the camera). I still think I had the best time in team 1, everyday can walk out to buy bubble tea one. haha~ peppermint milk tea with BIG pearls and red tea with BIG pearls. Haha~ the stupid things I remember. (I still think small pearls nicer!)

Finally found time to meet up with my CG mates. Yay we r all goin SGH next! The place where we learnt the 10 causes of pulmonary fibrosis the painful way, one of which is lymphangitis carcinomatosis. bleah~ When stressed HOs meet up, all they can manage to do is re-arrange food on the table.

(by the way, the fries get dipped into the sundae, the sauces are for decorative purposes and to bully the guys.)

Ok... enough of random bloggin. Time to sleep =)

Back to work. Soon.

2008-12-06T18:58:00.008+08:00

So... I'm sitting in the Melbourne Airport, and finally I have free wireless internet access!!! =)

My holiday went by so horribly fast its scary!!! But I think December generally goes by quite fast... isn't it? 19 more days to Christmas =)

Spent the last few days zipping around the Southern coast of Australia in a red Toyota Camry (one of the cars I wish to own in the future!). And I realized that home to CGH and back home is ACTUALLY VERY NEAR. haha~ I'm just spoilt.

Saw the cute cute little fairy penguins at Phillip Island... (but cannot take photos!) They are tough little things, after swimming in the ocean for like a few days then they have to climb up the very long beach to their little burrows! And they have really really short legs!!! Their stamina and determination is amazing...

And then we drank super a lot of wine in Yarra Valley... I think at one point I was a bit high... heh~ But the food at De Bortoli was amazing! Heh... although I think we were not quite dressed for the occassion... but then... fine dining is always good =)

Of course no trip to Melboure will be complete without a trip to the Great Ocean Road, and good thing I heeded someone's advice to spend a night there bcos by the time we reached the 12 Apostles it was like 8pm! (ok there isn't actually 12 of them left, I dun actually know how many...) But the Great Ocean Road was gorgeous... if only my drive on the ECP also got such nice scenary! haha~ Enough said, I don't think I have enough language power to describe its beauty. Blue skies, white sands, blue seas... =)

So now that I'm due at work in 2 days, I'm into pre-work blues. Sitting at the airline lounge and contemplating if I should eat cup noodles bcos someone near me is eating it and it smells so good. haha~ And trying my best to protect myself from falling sick again. My sister is sick... I'm in close proximity. Maybe work in December won't be so bad, bcos with the bosses gone its time for the mice to play! heh~

Looking forward to a great December! (bcos its my favourite month of the year!!!)

As a side note: the immigration officer told me "you must hav started really early, you look too young to be a doctor."
Ah well.

From the Great Ocean Road...

2008-12-05T18:49:00.000+08:00

So… after travelling something like 300km from Melbourne, I am now in the town of Warrnambool, somewhere at the end of the Great Ocean Road. Thank god for warm weather and clear skies today, we managed to arrive here safely!

Haven’t got much internet connection so photos and actual bloggin will have to wait, but I can’t believe my leave has ended so quickly!!! Its like just… THREE MORE DAYS!!!
Omgomg…
And I think I’m falling sick… again =(

the 1st day of my favourite month of the year!

2008-12-01T21:09:00.006+08:00

First of December =)

24 more days to Christmas!

It is pure enjoyment to be eating berries in a berry farm, bcos you never run out of them. I must have eaten a few kilograms of berries... never ending supply...

A little walk in the forest amongst the trees and being trigger happy...

And to end off the day.... Ice chocolate. Pure decadence.

Perfect Start to December =)

First time in Melbourne...

2008-11-30T19:42:00.006+08:00

Despite WAKING UP one hour before flight DEPARTURE TIME....

I made it to Melbourne!!! *grinz*

The city with pretty cacti...

Nice strawberries...

Nice cherries...

And my darling cousin who is now a big boy, stops destroying my birthday cake, and cooks for me! *grinz*

Now this feels like holiday... I've been off medication for a whole day!!! yippee~

Feeling much better~

2008-11-30T19:18:00.004+08:00

Its not bad to be a koala, bcos u can just sleep and munch all day.

Or else, kangaroo also okay. Can eat ice cream!

Won't life be wonderful if we could wake up to the scenic blue mountains EVERYDAY...

Then life would be perfect!

Day Two in Sydney

2008-11-30T18:47:00.006+08:00

Woke up super duper late on Friday morning, after my first proper sleep since night call on Tuesday. Still felt somewhat craggy, but definitely better. I think sleep does make a difference. Suddenly thought of how the ward rounds might have gone back home… heh…
After much procrastinating, finally crawled out of bed and decided to head to Bondi Beach to R&R, maybe watch the seagulls, watch the waves, watch the surfers. However…. It just had to pour so badly!!!

The sign said:

So I could only take photos of…

This little fella walkin on the beach =)

Was hoping the rain would stop but after a drink from Boost, decided that there was no hope at all, so embarked back enroute to the city, wondering how to kill time before meeting the rest for dinner.
Fishing out my pink nokia handphone from my super soaked bag, a nice sms from Singapore made me smile =) So unexpected =)

Spent the afternoon shopping around in Paddy’s market, just had to get myself a new sweater!!! It was getting way too cold and rainy for summer…. My sweaters were getting totally drenched!!! =(

Eventually ended up at darling harbour where met the gang for lunch at Hurricanes!!! Wow amazing ribs! Not that I had that much appetite…. But still… I was saving space for our eventual destination of the night… *drumroll*…. Lindnt café!Hey it was amazing…. I just couldn’t stop snapping photos of all the super duper chocolate! Me and Yinghui shared a chocolate lava cake and I could only stomach a hot chocolate… but yea it was good. Super good. We should have Lindnt cafes in Singapore too! *grinz*

With my super screwed up sleep cycle, I spent the night getting entertained on MSN… super drama. Haha~

In Sydney!

2008-11-29T20:18:00.004+08:00

So my long awaited leave of the posting has finally arrived and after like a lot of nagging from my parents to decide what I wanna do... I landed myself in Sydney! (while the rest of the family is still in singapore... heh)
Finally having a chance to go on leave was fun, especially after I've been seeing people go and come back from leave. Team one really rocks so it was good I got to spend most of the month with them, and good that we had one extra HO so I didn't feel so bad about goin off to play and leavin Ivan all the work. Sorry buddy~ heh... (The rest is another story that kept me entertained past midnight.)
Anyways, so I've spent three whole days in sydney, which went by really quick! And I'm due to fly to melbourne in a few hours which is why I can't decide if I should sleep now or stay awake and try to pack. (This morning, I slept through the alarm. bad omen.)
I remember leaving Singapore post-call and feeling so horribly sick that I slept through the plane ride feeling all drugged out and without even watching any movies on board! I didn't really eat either... had LOA for the 1st meal and slept through the 2nd. It was all worth it cos being in Sydney was so fun bcos I met a lot of random people, like how I spent a long time finding the bus stop to get to Cherie's place, found our way to the fish market where I met more friend's friends, and had lunch together! Amazing food I actually managed to stomach it. Meeting my long time primary school pal~

After lunch... I somehow clumbered down Georges street all the way to circular quay and spent super long looking for the Sydney Opera House even though it was so freakin big but I just couldn't see it! Fell asleep in the lobby of the Opera House bcos I think I took too many loratidines/anarex. Struggled really hard to make it to pancakes on the rocks (meanwhile taking naps along the streets), and finally arrived at my cousin's place, feeling super relieved.

Yes I know Sydney Opera House is super big but I was really walking around and around circular quay for like ages and all I could see was harbour bridge and NOT the opera house.

Tell me about the side effects of drugs... To be continued...

No more SIPs =(

2008-11-22T20:21:00.003+08:00

Me is goin on holiday soon!!! Can't wait! =)

And Ortho Team ONE completely rocks bcos we have nice cons and nice regs and nice MOs and nice HOs and nice SIPs! I'm so sad I'm changing team next month =(

Maybe I won't get to buy bubble tea anymore next month =( I must have bought at least 10 cups this month...

Recently, buying bubble tea has become more of a symbolic thing. It is a sign that I have completed my morning changes, an achievement just to make me happy. Sometimes I really wonder how my performance as a HO is. Am I being a good doctor, or am I being too slack?

Since ortho is less busy than medicine, I try to know my patients well and go through the case sheets and labs to make sure we don't miss out stuff in our horribly fast ward round. Missing out stuff just happens so easily, its scary. Bcos when your seniors walk to see the next patient... you just hav to follow even though u haven't had a chance to look at the IMR or the BO chart. And when you finally have the chance to sit in front of the computer with the case sheets + temperature charts +IMR in front of you (usually at night when no one fights with you for the charts), you realize that the patient has been brewing a UTI for days and days with no antibiotics. Sometimes, the reason why the hypocount is going crazy is simply bcos his old DM meds hav been inked up wrongly, and we've just been giving him tons and tons of actrapid for nothing! Most commonly, you realize that the patient was never restarted on his aspirin even though it is post op day 10... wat if he gets a stroke? Sigh~

I really feel very bad when I see all these things... seemingly it is my job to get all these sorted out, but... somehow... sometimes I still miss stuff, even after working for 6 months. Is it bcos I don't know my patients well enough? Or bcos I dun go through the case sheets often or detailed enough? (I usually only do it when I am on call, bcos its more peaceful then and I can think... plus there is no temptation to go anywhere else or do anything else.) There is so much more that I can do for them, spend more time talking to them/the family, explaining their condition to them in greater detail... But I just don't do it. When I question myself, I can't really explain why either.

In retrospect when I put myself in the patient's shoes, I guess the doctors really don't update the families enough. But when I get called by the nurses " doctor yap my patient in wXX bed XX the daughter is here and she wants to speak to the doctor...", I automatically get a bit irritated. I guess it is bcos I want them all to come during ward rounds so the consultants can speak to them. I get irritated bcos I hate it when patients/families think we have the duty to be there to update them when they are free to appear in the hospital. I get irritated when the families throw their social issues to the doctors and expect us to handle it ie. refuse to take the mother home and wants us to apply for nursing home/comm hosp and then tell me they have no money.

Maybe I'm just spoilt, never seen the day where I have no food to eat or no place to stay or no money to spend yet.

A couple of days ago, I got whacked by an anaesthetist for not calling cardio bcos one of my 88yo female patients had new onset ST depressions and T wave inversions with NORMAL cardiac enzymes and NO symptoms. It was rather depressing, bcos I subsequently also got whacked by cardio for calling them for something they didn't deem urgent enough to see by the end of the day. I'm still wondering really hard about it... were the ECG changes really significant enough to warrant an urgent cardio referral? Sigh......

Well I'm just glad I'm taking a break away from work soon... just sit around on the beach and chill I guess =) hope I can find some nice chocolates and some nice strawberries too! =)

If music be the food of love, play on.

2008-11-03T23:17:00.007+08:00

Times have changed. My mom is getting HERSELF an IPOD. How funky is that! But the generation gap is beginning to show when she's thinking of what to engrave on the back of it. Haha~

My mom's idea: "Nothing is impossible"

My sister's suggestion: "If Music be the Food of Love, Play On."

As a side note... I think my Ipod is dead =(

So... I'm in Team One now, which has pretti nice people!!! Yay~ Seems like everyone looks benign, though it is sometimes difficult to detect... I guess *shrug*

I have to buck up a bit, must admit recently I've been a bit slack in ortho, waking up later and later, and as our reg says our team list has deteriorated. As the initial enthusiasm that we had for HO-ship dies off, I suppose its really up to responsibility to keep things going. Like today, I got called to clerk a case admitted from clinic at 545pm. Was initially a bit pissed as to why the on call HO didn't clerk it but told the nurse to call me instead, especially when I was sitting in SICU and trying to figure out why our trauma activation case had SO MANY FREAKING FRACTURES and no one mentioned anything about the case. Then of cos, hip lady's PTT had to be high GOODNESS KNOWS WHY. Knee aspiration uncle had to have low BP and Son of DHS lady wanted to speak to me even though his mom was still in PACU?!?!?!? I mean... what would I know of poor old auntie in PACU???!??!?! Oh well.

Anyway, in the end, I clerked the old lady who was admitted for ?frozen shoulder and spinal stenosis (or so I think from whatever I could make out from the clinic notes). Completely reminded me of the days of clerking medical cases... must do full physical examinination type... haha~

*breathe*

Soon... we will see... the light at the end of the tunnel! =) Though I'm sure at that time I will be rather reluctant to leave CGH... just for the nice people.

Actually even in CGH... somethings can be really amazing sometimes.. like I was just mentioning that I wanted to learn how to do a nailbed repair on my last call, n the person I asked to teach me wasn't even the one scheduled to be in OT. But by some amazing luck, he ended up in OT on the one and only nailbed repair of the night and now I know that nailbeds are really friable. On the same night, the ortho HOs and MO ended up in a resus for a medical case where the medical HO was not even involved!!! (I'm still wondering why...) Anyway I don't think I was very useful there becos I didn't even know how to stick the tape around the ETT to secure it.

I haven't seen a successful resus since I started being a doctor... why.........

So for some happy things.

Over the past week, I found time to watch High School Musical 3!!! (its really nice!!!) If only all love stories were as nice and as innocent as Troy and Gabriella...

And also found time to meet up with my darling jie-meis (GH included) over ramen, macademia cheesecake and mudpies! Me misses all of yous!!! I'm so faraway in CGH most of the time I don't even get to see you guys!! Glad to know that everyone is still surviving halfway through HO-ship. Yes we are halfway through!!! Amazing isn't it? Even though everytime we meet, its still the same things that we talk about over and over again - hospital life, but somehow we just don't get bored of it! haha~

Jolin dearie: I have a pimple!!! My HOD noticed it today and told me it must b because I've been poking my nose around in the wrong thing!! =(

So Hang in there everyone... =)

TimeOut.

2008-10-03T20:26:00.003+08:00

Suddenly occured to me it has been a month since I blogged...

Life in CGH orthopaedics has been...... whirlwind.

Despite having left team 4... the horrors of day 1 still stay fresh in my mind. Having come from medicine, I had great expectations of myself in ortho, but the first day left me crying so badly my very nice MO had to set plugs for me... scary eh.

So one month down the road, things are getting a lot better, with us breaking for lunch at 12 on average, pretty decent timing for a HO, aided by our excellent SIPs. The all scary team 4 that everyone mentioned really didn't exist, and he is officially one of my favourite consultants =) The month of October has been slightly more traumatic, with us changing teams and seemingly irritating our MOs and Regs more than we hope to, I guess, it is part and parcel of being a HO? (or so I like to think). Ortho is a posting where big boys play with big toys. I guess, to survive, just have to be tough like the guys? I really dunno... Hope our Team D will get better. (D = dysfunctional)

Now for the good bits:

-I've learnt a lot from my new found ortho shifu, from how to hold forceps to playing with the Pulsavac. I'm so sad he's going on leave =(

-I've got great fellow HOs, I couldn't ask for better. That's wat friends do, they help each other. Like YX said, we are all slaves. But its great to have friends when u have to be a slave.

- I've been nicknamed blademistress by a particular consultant (supposedly bcos I disappear too fast like blademaster in warcraft, especially when he is trying to ask me questions.) The good thing is that, despite all that, he introduces me to coffee in the office and teaches me about hip dislocations. yay~

-my room is all done and nicely decorated! yAy~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I'm so pleased with myself =)

On call cm, with one of my favourite MOs! =) (things could have been... A LOT worse)

Jolin dear: hang in there... I miss u. It will all be over soon.

Holiday again =)

2008-08-30T22:41:00.014+08:00

Sitting in the airport waiting for my flight back to Singapore. I’m bored.
I take the chance to pull out my laptop and start my travel blogging =)
Any holiday is a good holiday simply because it is a holiday =) I’m just kindof sad that I have only ONE more day left in SGH. Think I will miss working in ward 63 (even though it is the worst place in SGH). Work was made so much better with fantastic colleagues. SGH med is really not as bad as people imagine, I’m sure most ppl who have been there can testify to that.

So as usual, I did the book ur call 2 days before your leave thing and had some rest before I left for Siem Reap. Armed with my trusty lonely planet book, I found myself in the lovely Siem Reap airport. It was really pretty, a stark contrast to the rest of Siem Reap that I soon discovered. Cambodia is definitely not a place for those who do not appreciate architecture, art or culture, and I am guilty of being one of those people, sometimes. Artisans D’Angkor was my first stop in Siem Reap, and it was nice to see how youngsters were being taught skills to keep them off the beggar route, like that fate of thousands in Cambodia. The French legacy lives on pretty much in this south east asian country. Art is one of those things which takes a lot of patience, a lot of talent, things which still elude me to this day. I took some time under the scorching sun in the salt water swimming pool in the hotel, just to relax.

clockwise: siem reap international Airport, Artisans D' Angkor, the silkworm cocoons, my hotel swimming pool.

Day 2 in Siem Reap was memorable: Seven temples we visited in a morning, but of cos none of them could match up to the splendour of the world famous Angkor Wat. Nuff said. I think my photographs don’t do enough justice. Ta Prohm, filming site of Tomb Raider, is also worth a visit, just to see the beauty and power of nature.

clockwise: me and tree hole, the roots destroying Ta prohm, me with the gods, at the southern gate of Angkor Thom.

Had dessert at FCC (foreign correspondent's club), the expat’s must-visit and most talked about place in Siem Reap. Not the most fantastic food I have eaten, but value for money by Singapore standards. Red Piano, the bar made famous by Angelina Jodie, is also worth a visit. The tomb raider cocktail was not that great, but my blue lagoon was up to standard.

Notes for the future visitor:
The Cambodian Cultural Village is absolutely boring and doesn’t have enough English explanation to tell you what is going on. It would be double boring if you get urself a guide as you would have to decipher the English words from the guide as well as listen to repeatedly long and boring explanations about the same thing. Artisans D’Angkor has some pretty good crafts for sale, at a hefty price too, but definitely worth the money if it is meant as an expensive gift. Buffet lunches/dinners sound a lot better than they taste. Food is mediocre, limited selection, and usually the only food that taste good is a bowl of kuay teow soup, Cambodian style + fresh fruits. Aspara dancing is really nothing to rave about, slow writing hand movements, too repetitive for me to appreciate. (either that or I was really too tired. Didn’t even bother with any photos!) Temples: good to read up on some history before you visit, helps make sense of all the Ramayana stories and the different kings that ruled the land. Just the lonely planet book introduction is sufficient.

On Day 3, we took a flight from Siem Reap to capital city Phnom Penh. Once again, the airport did impress, they even had Dairy Queen at the airport!!! =) (speaking of that, the lack of MacDonald’s in this place did strike me).

The royal palace was certainly grand but not as clean or well maintained as I expected. It was surprising to see piles of broken tables/chairs stacked rather unceremoniously along corridors in palace grounds! The stupas aka tombs were gorgeous though, never to be opened again. The national museum was once again very poorly maintained. The country does a pretty hopeless job when it comes to preserving their culture or artifacts I must say. The museum is a rundown building with beggars lining the doors and rusted gates, cobwebs between the artifacts, not a single one complete. Dismal state.

Central market proved to be a popular tourist and local spot. The usual sale of cheap, fake goods and weird food items swarmed by hungry flies before being delivered to the consumer. The shopping centre showed a different sight altogether, with Swensens being packed to the brim by non-foreigners! So there are rich people in Cambodia too. Dinner was supposed to be Cambodian food but tasted no better and no different from cai fan at the houseman canteen. The best of cambodian food, in my opinion, is still kuay teow soup! The Cambodiana Hotel bakery does fantastic cakes though!! 40% discount after 6pm! =)

No trip to Cambodia is complete without a visit to the Genocide Museum and Killing fields, stark reminders of the thousand who suffered horrible fates under the Pol Pot regime. Probably also the reason for the country’s third world status today. It was a grim morning, visiting tons and tons of mass graves and paintings of how civilians were tortured. It was almost like one of those secondary school history field trips to Changi prison and Kranji war memorial. But then again, who ever said that war was harmless?

The afternoon was spent slacking in the hotel and on a more relaxing cruise down Mekong River. Flags of the world line the river banks, significance unknown. The waters looked deceivingly calm, but they are not. It is my first time here, but the place looked strangely familiar. Later I recalled that this was the place shown over and over on television, when our national dragon boat team members perished in that fateful accident. At that time, it also struck me that while I was sitting on the deck of our rather old and rickety boat, there were no life jackets around. Oh well.
That night, we chose to have dinner at the Riverside Bistro, another of those places popular with the non-cambodian people. I had chicken cordon bleu and a cocktail. Pub grub.

Our last day in Phnom Penh was spent mostly lazing at the hotel, but with lunch at FCC once again, overlooking the Mekong river. Their woodfire pizzas are worth a try and the river views probably one of the best in Phnom Penh. I think my standards for food lower themselves in Cambodia.

Notes for the future visitor:
There really isn’t much to see in Phnom Penh, and two days is way more than enough. The Russian Market is a good place for souvenirs but bargaining skills are definitely needed. Cambodiana Hotel cakes after 6pm are a must try! Fruits along the roadside are the best buys, much cheaper and possibly fresher than those in the supermarket. Still must bargain!!! The camera pass in the National Museum is definitely not worth it.

I’m feeling a little, jittery and nervous about going to CGH and ortho. But…. Ah well…

I’m going 2 start planning my next holiday! Haha~ skiing anyone? =p

Post Call

2008-08-10T11:23:00.002+08:00

Once again using the hospital computers where u can blog, but cannot view blogs.
Post National day call, I didn't fufil my wish of watching the fireworks: the admissions just didn't stop. No party either: I only got to the egg tarts at 230am.

A very memorable call where for the first time I got punched in the face by Mr XYZ, one of those COPD patients with Type 2 respiratory failure who keeps wanting to go to block 9 of the hospital (aka mortuary). With a SpO2 of 67% on RA, he flatly refuses all supplementary oxygen and doesn't hesitate to punch anyone who attempts to stick the nasal prongs up his nostrils, even when he is sleeping! The good thing is, he looked fairly comfortable. Oh well... Me decided not to treat the SpO2 and just kept him off monitoring for as far as I was on duty.

Another patient, Mr unknown, has finally finally finally been found by his relatives who put up a missing person notice on one of the local newspapers. While his family searched high and low for him, the whole week was spent with us trying hard to restrain him and giving tons of IV sedation for tons of scans. It turns out the diagnosis is: dementia. BAH.
("Cheers" to the policeman who insisted from day 1 he is an illegal immigrant from the neighbouring country and had plans to bring him to the immigration centre. Bah.)

Time for lunch. =)

EMO-ing

2008-08-01T22:24:00.005+08:00

Haven't blogged for a long time, mostly due to lack of energy.

The month of July after commencement saw me going mad in respri, with 2 page long ward round lists and tons and tons of changes, thank god for helpful MOs. I must confess my respri posting started off really badly. Being totally petrified of my consultant, I went into the wards with me battling pneumonia, on erythromycin, coughing non-stop with pleuritic chest pain and trying to keep up with the crazy mass discharges, endless changes, and people's oxygen saturations dropping all the time. I recall the day that at 5pm, I realized I had already taken 14 tablets of anarex since 7am that morning. I recall the day where I got scolded by my MO for being highly incompetent, got my first discharge summary rejected by the consultant, and grabbed my phone, hid in one of those corridoors in SGH, and broke down into tears. Many thanks to the one who picked up my phone call that day, and listened to my ranting for 5 minutes, regardless of whether u really wanted to. On top of all that, the JAY CEE EYE also drove everyone nuts, especially me. I recall the ward round where I had to transcribe every single IMR DURING WARD ROUNDS bcos ppl used trade names rather than generic names and did not sigh every drug individually. Off course ward rounds ended at 1pm and I was being called non-stop because "patient's relatives are here and they want to go home early" and more irritatingly because "patient's family is here and they want to speak to the doctor". I must admit I think we should have gotten more rewards for passing that Jay Cee Eye, anymore of that would have drove me straight into ward 46A, behind locked glass doors.

At the end of it all, I can only say that respri was good training. In term of dealing with people wheezing, in respiratory failure, getting ABGs, updating family, and probably a more true reflection of life as a medical HO in SGH. Even though I didn't read up as much as I have wanted due to fatigue as well as most of my books being packet away in boxes, at least now I think I have a better idea of what creps or rhonchi sound like. Also highly thankful for nice fellow HOs who have been ever so helpful, and the senior doctors I always call for help in times of crisis (like pulling out a coop loop only to realize the coop loop wire is still stuck inside!!!)

Also found time to meet up with people in July, which was definitely a good break from the hospital. The only thing is..... it is a horrible feeling to get reminded of the lowly sums we are paid despite clocking at least seventy hours of work a week.

My good ol pal =)

And... I am STILL living in a construction site. Getting used to sleeping in my parent's room though, even though my mom has tons of rules and regulations.

Photos of my new room when it is more complete!

Back in DIM now. I guess we all need some slacker postings eh? Can't wait for the SIPs to come too.... I didn't have any in July!!!

Looking forward to class gathering tmr... long awaited one... yay!!! Sorry for my delay in organizing... hope all turns out well =)

Commencement 2008

2008-07-18T00:17:00.002+08:00

The beginning of a new phase of life.....

Y Daddy look so grumpy =(

Can't sleep, too many things happening together.

2008-07-16T01:01:00.014+08:00

Having a bad week contributed by multiple factors:
1) JCI - driving EVERYONE in the hospital nuts, including the poor HO who has the duty of RECTIFYING everything to be JCI STANDARDS such that ward rounds take up till ONE PM. Thank god for SIP students.
2) Respri – or more like me and respri just don’t get along. I’ve never encountered so much problems in my working life. Since this is a public blog, nuff said.
3) Pneumonia – I swear I have one, still having pleuritic chest pain despite completing my course of Erythromycin. And still coughing. Everytime I walk into the SGH A&E, the board flashes a 2 hour waiting time and the words of my senior con ring in my ears, then I turn around and head back into the ward. The life of a doctor – we are expected only to be doctors, never to be patients.
4) Renovations – still underway. Things have shifted, now I have moved in with my parents. Still feel like I’m sleeping in a construction site. Still unable to find things. Everyone still very high strung. Tempers still flaring, just too much for my exhausted mind I sometimes wish I would be on call forever.

Now to relive the good bits of my Korea break, even though I was bogged down with URTI and ? community vs hospital acquired pneumonia.

Lotte World never fails to excite… Being in a good mood is good for the sick.

Good food… Always helps +++

There is no such thing as too much...

Flight to Jeju, pretty island

The Lava Caves in Jeju

The Maze Park which took me so so so long to complete

Mt Halla, where we got drenched from head to toe

Just slacking and walking around

Just slacking and sitting around…

The DMZ… just taking photos with signs that say not to take photos…

Insisting on having every last bit of fun in the airport (where they have a station for tourist to make paper boxes) even though the screen blinks “final call”

That is me. Just me.

Life of a doctor..

2008-07-13T00:41:00.002+08:00

When you are sick... everyone just goes... "oh, u can sort yourself out".
When someone else is sick, you have to be the doctor, even in the middle of the night.
I wish people understand, that doctors are patients too.

From the student's lounge...

2008-06-25T14:41:00.000+08:00

Internet at home is down for a while, not quite able to get online access so have to rely on the SGH computers, where Facebook is blocked and blogs and blocked but blogging is not. Meaning, I can post entries, but cannot view my tagboard.
~Sigh~

Major renovation works are underway in the house. I mean MAJOR.
The ground floor has been totally cleared, with all our necessities like shoes and socks hidden in flimsy paper boxes under a big blue sheet covered by a layer of dust. This morning, I was horrified to find my slippers covered in a murky grey layer of a combination of fine sand and slightly wet dust. YUCKS. Speak about living in a construction site.

The stairs of the house has been lined with cardboard, which bear different footprints everyday, of obviously heavy duty boots. Terrible. Even the railings on the stairs bear ur finger prints after u desperately hang on for support, and of cos, your fingers in return are grey. Part of the great disaster is that the kitchen has been demolished and is far from the process of completion. Tranlates into: packed food daily, no place to wash hands, no cultlery. TOTAL DISASTER.

Level two of the house is in equal big disaster.
Dad and Mom have literally brought their huge mattress right smack in the middle of my room. How unglam. Dad makes so much noise when he sleeps that I seriously regret not dragging him to the ENT surgeon sooner. Bah. Walking through my room is like walking through a minefield, it takes great effort to make sure u do not slip and fall and break your ribs.

So as u can imagine, with the house in such a huge mess, everyone seems really high strung nowadays. Our normally peaceful talks have most of the time peaked into heated arguments, over really tiny issues. Balls of fire take the place of simple speech and it is surprising how all the paper boxes around haven’t caught fire. Sigh~

I wish all this will end soon.

On a more relaxing note: I have decided that my room shall be purple =) and I shall get a nice big white bed =). yay~

the little things of life...

2008-06-09T01:19:00.013+08:00

So now that we've got our first paycheck... some of the updates that has been going on in my life, outside of clerking patients and sitting in front of HIDS.

1) Postcall, I had dinner and dessert with ZJ, Rouan and TY who are probably currently all out of the country.... I think TY is somewhere in Japan with amazing sashimi and unagi and miso soup?!?!?!? *jealous* Anywayz, crepe and macaroon at Canele was gorgeous.

2) Watched two guys have dinner at Werners, while ranting about HO life. Huge pig trotter which ZJ kindly offered me some - too oily for my liking. Dessert at TCC followed =) I have a sweet tooth.

3) Brought my family out to dinner at Zambuca (level 3, Pan Pacific Hotel), set me back nearly 400 bucks! But it was amazing pasta, with all the cheese that I wanted! And I suppose an expected first month pay-check treat.

4) Bought my good friend his favourite Rum and Raisin Cheesecake. A million thanks to him for all the support and encouragement during the horrible final few months of muggin. *shudders* I'm just glad it is over.

5) Last day of DIM. Was kindof sad. I really learnt alot, bcos I had superb ppl working with me. Went back on Sunday to meet the rest of the ward 73 B side people for lunch. We had good burmese food!!! Pity my MO was in a rather... not that great mood due to some events post-call so he didn't join us. That's me and Mavis. Colour-coordinated =)

6) Met a long time friend for supper at the Coffee Bean. Somehow we always end up at that same coffee bean outlet!!! Had some almond chocolate cake with one of those fanciful names I cannot remember. And he bought me Eeyore from Disneyland!!! I wanna go to Disneyland too!! *pout* Eeyore is gloomy... like I have been this month.

Sunday mornings

2008-06-01T08:39:00.003+08:00

It is a complete luxury to spend sunday mornings just lying in bed, laptop next to me, and not rushing round the ward trying to get ABGs and silently cursing at everyone who ordered blood cultures x 3 on sunday. (I hope non of that happens today, since my poor MO has no HO to do the changes today)

I wanted to go out and run, but its raining outside, perfect excuse to laze in bed.

I have mixed feelings about tomorrow. New team, new people, and most scary of all - Renal patients all with the potential to go into flash APOs when u haven't managed to get a line in. *shudder*

The past one month, I must say I really learned a lot more than I ever did in med school. As my MO says, it is "baptism of fire". True. Very true.

It is only in the dead of the night, with no one to help, that u actually write down ur first orders for insulin, and actually keep it at the back of your mind to check a few hours later that the patient is not hypoG. Your ability to correctly interpret ECGs and X-rays suddenly come in crucial to life and death. Piriton becomes ur next best friend (although I will never forget how my geriatrics tutor curses all HOs who give her patients piriton, for fear of side effects).

Fingers crossed for a good month ahead =)
Off to meet people for lunch!

Nineteen

2008-05-20T20:35:00.002+08:00

Nineteen days into HO life, I've survived a grand total of three calls, including a Sunday one...
I am tired, still terrified, and happy all at the same time.

In these nineteen days, there have been times...
-of fun: when u know ur MO is around, and everything is under control, and it is a relaxing day
-of panic: when the SpO2 monitor reads 7%
-of desperation: when u have poked Mdm XX, the obese lady for the 7th time and there is still no backflash in your needle
-of irritation: when u get called bcos Mr XX cannot fall asleep despite ur Piriton 4mg stat
-of satisfaction: when Mr A says thank you after you took his blood at 3am
-of fear: when u get confronted with angry relatives and meet angry consultants over the phone
-of comfort: when u and your friend sit side by side at 4am, knowing that we are all in this together
-of disappointment: when in retrospect u should have ordered a CT brain bcos ur patient was delirious
-of delight: when ur friends bring u candy and a pretty ring pre-call
-of despair: when u have u stand and press on a bleeding perm cath site and ur phone rings non-stop
-of gratefulness: when ur friend takes ur phone for 30minutes of the night so u can shower in peace

The list goes on...

I can never thank you enough, for all that u have done for me. Though sometimes I dunno if I'm doing the right thing, I just want u to know, that you will always be my hao3 peng2 you3! If u need anything, I'm a call away =)

DIM. Day Four.

2008-05-05T21:47:00.004+08:00

I am totally exhausted.

Fell asleep after dinner today and had to force myself to get up so that I don't screw up my sleep cycle too much.

I have to be very careful bcos I can't write too much on my blog and whatever comments that I have about my HO life will probably have to be shared only with friends, away from the public eye. Its scary how many people read your blog and you don't even know. Google is a powerful tool.

Work has probably been the same for everyone: rushing from place to place, calling the whole world and praying u don't get scolded, playing hide-and-seek with the elusive holy trinity (case sheets, IMR and clinical charts), praying that u see a backflash in ur needle so u don't have to re-drape for cultures, and hoping the handphone will JUST STOP RINGING. This is HO life I guess.

It is my first call tmr, one that someone else asked me to takeover. It is good I guess, I have to go on call sometime anyway. I'm trying to pack my call bag and I'm not sure what to put inside. Honestly, I wish I could bring all my MBBS notes with me. You never know what happens in the hospital at night, and I swear I've forgotten at least half of what I knew 2 months ago.

One thing that keeps me happy: I have pretty crocs to wear tmr, with pretty studs at the side, blessings from a good friend. =)

1st day at work

2008-05-02T06:55:00.002+08:00

7am now. Decided to sit in the student lounge since its still a little early in the morning. The thing that remains the same: we are still waiting for ward rounds to start. The thing that is different: we probably have a different role in the wards now. Ward rounds are not just for the purpose of scouting out our next physical examination/clerking targets. I'm a little excited, but more terrified. Terrified of the possibilities that lie ahead, the possibility that my consultant hates me, or that some patients may collapse and I will be so completely freaked out that my mind will blank out, or I might write a wrong medication order leading to disaster.
Didn't sleep as well as I had hope to last night, I think I'm suffering from anxiety.
Oh well, about time to go. I feel so unprepared, like I've never been through medical school.
Someone... give me power.

One week in Singapore

2008-04-27T18:23:00.003+08:00

After a long day at "work", the four of us met up once again, just two days after returning from Nepal. I miss Nepal like crazy... being in the mountains with friends and no handphone was amazing. We talked to people face to face, no impersonal phone calls or MSN. We had our fair share of disagreements, problems, but we conquered them together. Lots of conversation over the week has been on how tanned/burnt we have become, or what "exciting" things happened in Nepal eg. x being dirty on y's bed... haha~

Its been one week in Singapore and we've been fed loads and loads of food! I must say the food actually tastes pretty good and my appetite seems to be so good! I hope my basal metabolic rate is higher too or else there would be undesirable consequences. I've been to Ding Tai Fung twice over this week, went to the Cheesecake cafe, had Jap food + desserts. Me is a happy girl... till tmr =p

Nepal Trip 2008

2008-04-21T23:09:00.005+08:00

My room smells of Lavender, the nice woody smell that reminds me so much of Nepal. It was a great 20 days, I couldn’t have asked for better company. Reality struck as I was thrown into a whole day of grueling ACLS lectures, and it was shocking to find out how much information can disappear from my brain in a short span of 20 days. Shall blog about my trip by simply typing out what little anecdotes I scribbled down on my papers each day of the trip…

In an attempt not to overload my blog with photos… here is the link to my trip diary...
It will be updated as I sort out my photos, day by day, 20 days in all =)

just an update

2008-04-21T22:16:00.002+08:00

For the records, the MBBS is over, we got our results and I'm back from Nepal in a completely new shade of brownish-black (everyone who saw me today can attest to that). I have skin peeling from my arms remnants of the "milia" that I got in Nepal, or so I like to think. It is non-tender so I dun think its sunburnt, not after the heaps of sunblock that I applied.

Will eventually post photos when I get all of them and when I finish filling up all the endless forms and eventually find time to go for the medical checkup.

I'm so tired after one whole day of ACLS lectures I so want to sleep and I still haven't quite unpacked from Nepal. Food today tasted good and my appetite seems to have gone up a lot too. I actually do wanna try and see if I can run faster now since I might actually be polycythemic!

xiao long bao dinner tmr! =) And to relive the extraordinary moments we spent in the mountains and by the river, away from the computer and books.

=)

breathe

2008-03-19T15:37:00.004+08:00

Ok now is the difficult part. The practical. I realized I forgot how to do proper physical examination liao. *sigh* why is my short term memory so lousy.... n long term memory even worse... At least no more O&G!!! *grinz* can file away one big stack of notes =) And maybe clear up more space in my brain.

In any case, yesterday was a good day, the type of day I haven't had in a very long time! Bcos I didn't touch my books at all!

Spent the pm clearin up my room a little bit... Hey now u can see the floor! (though u still can't see the bed and the table... which means that tonight I can sleep on the floor)

Then spent the evening out in town with some good company =)

Came home with J.Co donuts and Muji milk tea and other Muji nonsense because I went on a mini Muji shopping spree!!!! haha~ The donuts r fantastic, much better than donut factory anytime =)

Ok... back to muggin~

Signs indicative of a severe mitral regurgitation include small volume pulse, displaced apex beat, soft S1, early A2, LV S3, early diastolic murmur at apex, pulmonary hypertension and heart failure.

One more day.

2008-03-10T13:10:00.000+08:00

*breathe*

GoGoGo!!!!

3 days left.

2008-03-07T19:41:00.001+08:00

Mugging really makes u feel like crap.

But at times like these... every small little good thing is magnified one hundred times =)

Sweets... to make a sweet day =)

Thankew Hanlong! Jia you with the spots =)

I should be studying

2008-02-23T21:30:00.002+08:00

bcos med MCQ is in about 36 hours but I am just so tired and totally no mood to study even though I didn't know like anything at Prof Raja's tutorial today and I am SO IN BIG TROUBLE FOR MY MBBS and apparently the derm results are out but I dun even want to check it because I know that I am confirm fail bcos I still remember how horrible it was because I didn't know any of the slides at all and today I didn't even know what granuloma annulares was and I couldn't recognize that pyoderma gangrenosum either and I always take super long to read the ECGs and I better hope that it is because I was sitting too far behind to see the ECGs and not because I am SO SUPER LOUSY THIS CLOSE TO MBBS though yanru says it is usually multifactorial and I am so super screwed and I should stop ranting and go shower and go look through some MCQs and the lecture notes today and attempt to make some sense of the hyper and hypothyroidism stuff which everyone seemed to understand with amazing ease that I am so screwed.

ok. enough ranting.

CNY. DAY ONE.

2008-02-07T22:54:00.000+08:00

Nothing particularly exciting today. In fact the highlight of the day was probably seeing little gerger!!! =) She's so cute and adorable and she doesn't cry when she sees me!!! She's all nice and pink today! Haha... photos when I get them.

Lazy morning, had some relatives over in the afternoon, then went to my grandma's place for dinner. The big bungalow was just.... so quiet. I blog the same things over and over again these few years but CNY really doesn't feel like CNY with my cousins somewhere else in the world. The joy and fun that we used to have just running around and eating up all the keropok in the house... that is something I truly miss and what CNY truly means to me. No amount of ang pows can make up for that... its a pity. While shooting hoops today I was secretly wishing that... I might actually be on call on the first day of CNY next year. Sigh.

Good thing some of the boredom was relived by Xuan hui who took a walk with me in the garden amongsts his tortises and turtles. Though I took tons of photos but I guess it wouldn't be wise to post them..... just in case, you never know who reads your blog nowadays. We even spent so much time just staring at the fish tank. I found that one of the parrot fishes had exopthalmos!!! seriously buldging eyes! Xuanhui says its called "pop-eye disease". Maybe.

Tomorrow, I shall attempt to get some studying done. Might as well make good use of the CNY break. And I'll go catch CJ7 too =)

Look at those huge buldging eyes!!!!

(I even think the fish has some parotidomegaly!)

See if you compare it to the other fish..... the eyes are huge!! and abnormal!!! haha~ pop-eye disease. Maybe the fish eat too much spinach... haha...

CNY.

2008-02-06T22:47:00.000+08:00

Not expecting anything extremely exciting this year especially with my cousins away and the MBBS looming. But I'm just glad for the break after my horrible horrible horrible derm test... which..... well..... I seriously pray that my MBBS will be far better than this. Derm and me, we don't get along.

The true/false section was COMPLETELY DISASTER bcos I couldn't answer most of the questions...... and some of the conditions, never ever heard of it in my life. It was so bad that I actually found it amusing, bcos there was no way I was going to pass with the negative-marking-that-is-not-confined-to-a-single-question. I would need a really big miracle to be in the positive mark range.

And just when I thought nothing could be worse than that..... along came the slide quiz. From slide one, I knew that my derm = fail. The only question that I could answer with some confidence was probably basal cell carcinoma and I dunno if putting it as one of the middle questions was intentional, to lift my horribly destroyed confidence by... 1mm.

Then came the long case/viva. Outside the room I completely freaked because I was mixing up all the antibiotics for all the different STDs. Doxycycline for.... erm... was it Chylamydia or gonorrhoea? Crap. Which is ceftriaxone? crap. I thought I just mugged this 5 minutes ago. Crap. As I entered the room, saw two very unforgiving pairs of eyes staring at me. Die.
"examine this man's lower arms"
Kind uncle was nice enough to flex his elbows and who me his extensor surfaces which was where all the lesions were.
Drew my chair nearer to uncle and looked around, trying to peer hard at the lesions. Noticed awkward silence in the room. Totally freaky. After a while I said "erm... do u want me to describe as I look?"
"Yes" *duh, how could i even ask such a stupid question*
"Oh ok, so I notice that this gentleman has lesions on his lower arms *duh* mainly on the extensor surfaces extending from wrist to slightly above elbow. *pause* The lesions are... erythematous plaques... with...... whitish scales...."
*silence*
examiner (e): "what else do u notice about him?"
me: "erm... I notice he also has... nail dystrophy.... bilaterally.... symmetrically.."
E: "so what is your diagnosis?"
me: "erm..... psoriasis..."
E: "what type of psoriasis?"
me: "erm....... the chronic plaque type...."
E: "ok...... what other things can be affected in psoriasis?"
me: "erm.... they can get psoriatic arthropathy as well, which I don't notice in this patient"
E: "What chronic disease do u know of that is associated with psoriasis?"
Me: *sweat* *long period of Silence*
E: (I think he was kindof irritated at me liao.... for taking so long to diagnose a simple psoriasis... sigh....) "ok so this man has chronic plaque psoriasis, how would u manage him?"
*so I was right! He does have chronic plaque psoriasis! phew! Why didn't I just say that in the beginning......argh......crap....now he is asking me a question.... but my mind is blank..... argh..... I mugged this 10 minutes ago! was regurgitating management of psoriasis to yanru!!! why I cannot remember??? argh....*
Me: erm.... for this gentleman... we can start by trying pharmacological therapy. Topically..... we can give him some emollients.... some steroids..... some anti-mitotic agents such as tar.......
*silence. why can't I remember the rest.... argh*
E: "what other anti-mitotic agents do u know?"
Me:*silence. for the hell of me I just cannot remember. argh*
after a long period of silence......
E:" ok so this guy has failed your topical drugs, what else can u try?"
me: "erm... phototherapy"
E:" what types of photo therapy do u know of?"
me: "erm.... the narrowband ultraviolet B....."
E: "anymore?"
me: "erm... can also try PUVA which is psoralen + ultraviolet A"
E: "what else?"
*silence........I dunno!! got anymore meh????? At this point of time I remember... dithranol... calcipotrol.......damn*
E:"ok so he has failed phototherapy too. anything else u want him to try?"
Me: "erm.... we can try systemic drugs such as...... methotrexate... cyclosporin....."
*I can't remember. argh..... i really did mug this 10 minutes ago.... argh...."
E: "what else?"
*silence............*
E: "would u try systemic steroids?"
Me: "yesyes...."

Ok.... now DR XX will ask u some STD questions......
*OMG.... die liao.....*

STD went equally bad....... couldn't answer what was an immediate test to determine whether a guy with penile ulcer had syphilis or not. argh.
(When I walked out of the room, answer struck. Dark field microscopy. damn.)

I think I need to do a lot of work on my self-confidence in answering questions and getting my nerves under control. argh. Maybe if I was more prepared I wouldn't be so..... bad......
*breathe*

On a nicer thought.... I saw fahrenheit on Disney channel today!!!! Haha they are singing the disney theme song for the year of the mouse!!!! haha yay~ nice nice song! so cute!!!!! (disney never fails to cheer me up) And I'm turning 24 this year *boohoo*

Just a small point:
the title of the song is called 小小大人物... and when I watched youtube and I asked people to comment on like what they thought about the song and the title. Most of the comments went along the lines of like how the title is supposed to show that even though you are/mickey mouse is only a "small" person in the whole world you can make a big difference to the world... that kindof thing..... even my sister said sthing along those lines....

But when I first saw the title and heard the song..... the meaning of the title was just obvious to me! The Mickey Mouse head is made up of two small circles (the ears) and one big circle (the face!). Therefore he is also known as 小小大人物, isn't it????

I have comedones!!!!!! eeek!!!!

2008-02-03T22:31:00.000+08:00

Got this off someone... thought it was quite funny!

When a panel of doctors was asked to vote on adding a new wing to their hospital, the Allergists voted to scratch it and the Dermatologists advised not to make any rash moves. The Gastroenterologists had sort of a gut feeling about it, but the Neurologists thought the administration had a lot of nerve, and the Obstetricians felt they were all laboring under a misconception. The Ophthalmologists considered the idea shortsighted; the Pathologists yelled, "Over my dead body", while the Pediatricians said, "Oh, Grow up!" The Psychiatrists thought the whole idea was madness, the Radiologists could see right through it, and the Surgeons decided to wash their hands of the whole thing. The Internists though t it was a bitter pill to swallow, and the Plastic Surgeons said, "This puts a whole new face on the matter." The Podiatrists thought it was a step forward, but the Urologists felt the scheme wouldn't hold water. The Anesthesiologists thought the whole idea was a gas and the Cardiologists didn't have the heart to say no. In the end, the Proctologists left the decision up to some asshole in administration.

Weekend just flew by! Grrrr....
Back to Asian Skin~

0302 = 36 (I think)

2008-02-02T23:47:00.000+08:00

My new medication.

Thankew ZJ and G for that therapeutic dinner on Thursday. Talking to friends... it does amazing wonders.

CNY is coming, after I conquer my dermatology test (all the freakin rashes look the same! I thought stucco keratoses was psoriasis!!! the guy really had well-demarcated salmon pink plaques with silvery scales wat... looked so far from stucco keratoses which is supposed to be like grey-white scaly papules right!!! right???)

Somehow I'm not that excited about CNY anymore, a far cry from the days where we used to wake up so excitedly on CNY morning and grab our new and pretty red little dresses and rush downstairs so that we can start collecting ang pows and eat all the amazing food. I remember some maybe fifteen years ago I saved all my nicest shoes and socks and hair clips for CNY. Haha. Then all your relatives will go round petting your head and go "wah, 张高了hor!".... haha... so funny...

Since last year CNY just seems like.....a bit of a chore sometimes. Especially since there is lack of company with all my darling cousins studyin away from home, and somehow we never fail to have exams after CNY. I still remember having O&G exams on the 3rd day of CNY last year. *grumble*

This CNY doesn't bring good news either.. THIRTEEN NEW ERP GANTRIES!!! Seriously... I already have adjustment disorder to ERP gantries... My distress on going under the ERP gantry is out of proportion to what would be expected of a normal person, especially someone who "can afford to pay the two dollars". Don't ask me why, I've tried all the cognitive reasoning on myself but somehow the link between my cognition and behaviour is just lacking. (so much for all the talk, I did pretti badly for psych test. sigh. This is really bad considering my impending MBBS.)

Another day gone by. Just like that. *breathe*

I hope that when this is all over, I will not look back and hate myself.

*breathe*

Weekend

2008-01-20T23:53:00.000+08:00

All these photos explain why I hardly got any studyin done over the weekend. However, I'm glad Saturday was a highly super duper good day!!!! =)

Anyone who passes their PACES is truly... AMAZING.

Jing's Belated Birthday cake on Saturday night =) Its the same cake that I had on my 21st Birthday. Brings back nice memories =) Chocolate... yummy~

Sunday lunch at Jackson Miller was semi-buffet =) The company was better than the food =) XH I can't believe u are actually goin overseas too!!!! That leaves less of us in Singapore!!!!! Chengsi dearie r u comin back for good anytime soon????

Terminal THREE!!!! I finally got to go there =) Next time I'll get to go inside. *hrmph* I wanna take aeroplane too........... But I bought jelly beans to last me through psy tmr! yay~

Monday has arrived again.

*breathe*

1401 = 56

2008-01-14T00:03:00.000+08:00

今天，我无意中听到了爸爸和妹妹的对话。

他说：他所做的一切，只是为了让我们开心，让我们有最理想的生活环境。只要是我们想要的，钱财不是问题。就算要他花多一点钱，只要我们开心，那才是最重要的。

我听了，眼泪不禁流了下来。
我从小不愁吃不愁穿环游世界，公主般的生活，原来是建立在爸爸这二十三年来的汗水。

我告诉自己，接下来的几个月，不管有多讨厌读书，都一定要坚持下去。
因为，我必须顺利的毕业，成为让爸爸骄傲的小公主！

加油！

I completely forgot about Med MCQ!!!!

2008-01-06T23:10:00.000+08:00

Oh my goodness blur me completely forgot about the existence of the med MCQ test *growl* Seems like I have to make some adjustments to my study plans *growl* No time no time!!! *grumble* Making an attempt to put more photos on my blog these few weeks so that it will make my blog look more colourful and brighten the terrible mood that has been looming around due to the impending exams *grumble more* Although these events in my blog are rather trivial day to day things that happen in my life, in current circumstances, they qualify as the most exciting things that happen in my life filled with boring ward rounds and endless piles of information that constantly diffuse OUT of my small and saturated brain.

So here begins with photos from dinner with my family on New Year's day I believe. Simple Western meal at this place called Cafe Oliv. Not bad food I must say, except that..... the waiters were obviously from some other South East Asian country and had great difficulty understanding our English orders. Bah. Wats new. That random piece of tu-tu cake was my random craving for sweet food.

The evening today was spent at my cousin's place, for XA's birthday cum pre-enlistment dinner. Haha... dun worry boy. Its boyz 2 men =p At least we took a photo of you with hair right? before they shave it all off =p The Nintendo Wii is the latest in thing and I must say its pretti cool leh!!! Quite fun to play... haha.... good for bowling training, just to ensure consistency in your shots =p But then I got trashed by my two little cousins who apparently have been "training". Eh boys... school start liao leh... must study! Dun keep playing! =p (I think I need to tell myself that too... exams coming liao leh.... must study, dun keep playing!)

So its Happy Birthday to XA... and happy enlistment...

Yay~ my darling cousins who over the past few years have become somewhat more excited about taking photographs so now we have heaps of them =)

Chengyi dearie: I heard u r flying back to Singapore for three hours tmr!!! But I've got lessons so I can't meet u!!! Are we goin 2 Melbourne over Easter????

More of my Birthday presents! My new 飞轮海CD which came with two pretty files! hahahaha.... its the really 舍不得用 kind... still nicely wrapped in the plastic. And my blue Tamagotchi!!!!! (Don't laugh! Its the one and only tamagotchi I ever had in my life okay) She is like hungry ALL the time and sleeps like FOURTEEN hours a day!!!!!! =) Lucky baby.

On a more serious note, I realize A LOT of people actually read my blog. Those I know and those I dunno. Its scary eh... Am I revealing myself too much on my blog? Should I be more wary about who is reading it? Should I secure it with a password? Should I be cynical and suspect that someone is potentially goin to use my entries to blackmail me someday? I've always believed that no one in the world could be so evil because... well... why should anyone do that right? I dun really believe that I should u know... write only about certain certain things because I am potentially goin 2b a doctor someday and I should be seen as someone who is very professional all the time, no joker, and not some little kid who is still playing with Tamagotchi. I always think that my ability to do my work properly will manifest itself in school and at work I dun really want to put on a mask in front of my friends and everyone else, to try to be someone that I am not. I want to be true to myself and true to everybody, and I don't want to lose the child in me, it is one of the few good things I have left. But am I just being naive? Will all these come back to haunt me someday? (This is one of those moments where I frown and want to run away into neverneverland again. Our world... its just... too complicated.)

I think I'm exhibiting early dementia

2008-01-02T23:38:00.000+08:00

This is the first photo of 2008!

(Taken with YR's laptop camera... not bad lar =p)

The last of 2007

2007-12-31T22:16:00.000+08:00

Another 37 minutes more, n we mark the end of the year. Once again.

This year, no alcohol or fireworks for me. Just some peaceful time alone, in my room, in my thoughts.

The year somehow went by exceptionally quickly. I spent about two months out of twelve somewhere faraway from homeland Singapore. Maybe that's why.

Some say a year is a long time, some say it is a short time. I guess, it is both. In this one year, I have slowly let go of things that I have held on to for too long. But, I have become more cynical, more evil, less sweet, less likeable, or so I think. Maybe its the process of growing up, and realizing that I don't live in Neverneverland. Maybe its not a bad thing. Maybe I am suppose to learn things this way. Maybe. But I still struggle to accept all these... maybe if I had a daemon, it would still be changing, not fixed... because I am still growing and learning new things about myself.

With regards to school, I guess I have lost my interest in a lot of things. More and more I begin to wonder why we are doing this and what we are doing this for. With the 8 weeks of SIP that we did, well, mixed feelings, long story. But it was not without its horrible moments, and the SGH playground can testify to that. With the final less-than-one-hundred days to go, I guess I'm excited but not as motivated as I should be. My Birthday wish for 2007: for all of us to pass our MBBS this coming March. It would be great =)

So I leave my last post of 2007 with photos from the final week of the year.

Many thanks to all those who have stood by me this year. I love you guyz. *muackz*

From my Birthday:

Lunch at Thai Express + dessert at Canele! My darling RGS 402 pals leh! =)

With my shuang bao! The "haoyun" pose! See we got same shirt leh!!!!! =)

see lar guohao tell u to wear nice shirt! y u keep wearing that SAME shirt...

My darling gal pals: Jolin, LY, Claudia, YR.... u galz r the best! *muackz*

And ZJ too! my good friend even though I know I am one of the person on his "to-kill" list for the balloon....... *oops*

Me and my Chocolate Birthday Cake. That is one thing that doesnt' change!

With Yetyan, my primary school classmate leh!!! Those were the days where "we belong to TNS and we always obey the school rules......" (hey we really did lar... back then =p)

The garden hospital surgery people, Thanks for coming guyz~

N the photo where George failed to co-ordinate their ducking action. Bully me *wail*

My darling little... erm.... sortof cousin? Haha she so cute!!!!!!

According to YR: Can walk without support, need support to climb stairs. Got pincer grip, able to pass objects to people. Imitates other people's actions. Able to say "mama" and "papa" and single words with meaning eg "fish", "要" and "不要". Able to understand simple commands. Good personal-social interaction. Shows interest in objects around her. Still unable to feed self.

Conclusion: 12-18 months. (good guess, she's 15 months I think)

The Last Day of December:
Celebrating Geng's Birthday. Belated. Gosh even he has reached a double digit age! We are really really aging fast!

Kan playing the piano with his super intense expressions. My good piano partner but now he's too good for me! Maybe he will become the next Jay Chou =p

Me and Xuanhui! =) Haha I had to climb on the window ledge to get this photo k.... He stood inside the house while I stool on the window ledge outside the house! =)

My Pwe-sens from Japan!!!! Whee!!! Checkout the heaps of 白い恋人!!!!! So much for my New year resolution of must eat less and exercise more. Yay~ I love my cousins. Hope everyone will be home for Christmas next year! =)

The countdown to 2008 begins.

~I'm Twenty-Three~

2007-12-30T01:29:00.000+08:00

I had fun today~ Hope u guyz did too!

Luv u guyz~

I'm too tired now..... but more photos next time! =)

~Christmas Day~

2007-12-25T22:07:00.000+08:00

Compared to last year, I must say it is a lot quieter. Its the first time that all of us actually manage to fit into the same table for dinner eh? Even though dinner was pretty normal fare, its really the company that counts in the festive season. Shiyu: check out the keropok! I hope by Saturday will still have somemore...

Put up my Christmas tree as usual. Decided to create some mood with the pretty lightings and presents, then gotta leave the tree there till my birthday too =)

Chengyi dearest decided to surprise me with an early birthday cake! She and her parents r off to Shanghai tmr to spend the new year... Bon voyage gal! Thanx so much for the cake! One candle is enough... I feel so old already! =) Can we please please please go to Vienna next year... Ian wright makes the place look so pretti!!!!!!!!!!

Thankew to mommy, daddy, jin, chengyi, ah kim and jiujiu for the christmas presents! =) All blue stuff! Love them! (I still want that 飞轮海写真集 they have at kino.......that's blue and white too.....)

And thanks to my buddies yanru and guohao for the wallet too! They can really read my mind!!!! =p I'll give u guys ur prezzies tmr! *muackz* love u guyz!

Tonight shall be spent reading Northern Lights =)

Maybe it sounds like a good idea to have a daemon! If I have one I want a mouse daemon.

The muggin shall continue tmr =p

Last day at the Garden hospital

2007-12-22T00:27:00.000+08:00

Oh I wish I never have to go back there again!

Should have taken a photo of the guys playing marvel vs capcom at the lounge though... one of those classic scenes =p

This is the amazingly empty road when I drove to school this morning, as well as the AYE exit to the garden hospital.

It is usually so packed with cars.... so the emptiness just means that many many many people are already on holiday! So now it is finally MY TURN... whahahahahahaha =p

Our photo to remember all the times we spent in Kaizen one, with the pretty fish tank outside =)

SunGlasses Hut! SGH! That's where I'm going next! Oh I love u gals! *hugz*

The night was spent meeting up with my all time good friend since like Primary three!!! U r my longest friend ever gal~ Have fun in Glasgow! I'm sure u'll love Scotland... cos I miss that place so much!!! Dun forget to try the Haggis =p

Yay I actually have stuff to blog about... which means... it IS December!!!!!!

Early Christmas Celebration~

2007-12-20T22:38:00.000+08:00

It is finally starting to feel like December.

Since our EOPT got cancelled today (well I was already 90% sure it would be), headed off for some fun with my dearest Chengyi gal who was surprisingly awake rather early despite just arriving from Heathrow =) It was off to Orchard cos it was probably the best place to experience christmas eh? The rainy morning was quite a spoiler... but sun with moon is just... gorgeous =) Heh... we really know how to enjoy food eh... this is when supplementary cards come in extremely handy =p

In our post-prandial drowsiness we got down to doing some targeted shopping and I got extremely distracted by the M&M house at Lido =) They sold M&Ms like candy mix! u can mix and match the different colours! But so super expensive though... heh... I couldn't resist. We all need retail therapy sometime right? *grinz*
Walked all the way down to PS to watch National Treasure (its so like Da Vinci code!!!) Well ok it was a decent show lar... but the company is more important. Its amazing how we have remained so close over the years, despite seeing less and less of each other now eh? I guess its a bit more exciting now cos we get to go out more without having to wait for "the adults" to bring us. yay~ Had to wait super long for the bus home after that though. traffic was stopped momentararily along Orchard Road bcos some... sortof like floats had to pass. bleah~ (Jing, u blinked!)

Dinner was amazingly good, rather unexpected actually. Especially since my daddy and mommy and sister got the whole extended family thinking that they had to go for BUSINESS TRIP in vietnam when actually the TRUTH is that they all abandoned me and went on HOLIDAY!!!!! *grrrrr* We had chilli crab and pepper crab and panettone!!!! The last time I ate one was in Italy like a few years back!!! yummy~ It feels a bit like christmas now. Haven't done my christmas shopping though!!!

Oh I'll be so sad when u guys leave again =( Then it won't feel like December anymore =(

Thanx u guyz loads for the company today... so timely since its been a pretti lonely week for me. Luv u peeps! *muackz*

Its December....

2007-12-14T20:28:00.001+08:00

That month of the year again.
The month I usually love but dread this year.

Daddy n mommy and sis are away in Vietnam probably enjoying all the exciting food!!!! I want some too!!!!!!!!

Had a very rushed birthday celebration today for our dearest Yanru and Eks...

Happy Birthday u two!

Coco exotic from Four Leaves is ultimate good cake! =)

As we approach the end of the year... A nice photo to share... although taken in a really big hurry, and after the cut up cake.

Presenting the people who hae been tolerating all my nonsense day in day out... all my tantrums and bad moments, and the people who have shared with me all the joys and dreadfulness of being a final year medical student. Sorry for all the horrible things that I have done... love you guys.... my beloved CG 22 =)

2007-12-14T01:08:00.000+08:00

I need a miracle

2007-12-03T19:49:00.000+08:00

Feeling extremely grumpy today because I heard the little thingy in the corner of my car go "beep" when I passed under the newly erected blue and white barrier.
For the past one month, I have been avoiding this situation with pretty good succes... by either dashing home before or after the all-dreaded SIX TO EIGHT PM time.
But today, the whole idea of staying that particular place any longer was completely mood-draining and too much for me to bear that I had to succumb to the, option which I thought would be less mood-draining.

Sigh.

How many more days do I have to do this? I hate it.

As if we don't have enough horrible things in life.

To add to the horrible mood that I am in now...
Ninety-nine days to go.

I need a miracle.

Amazing stuff...

2007-12-01T19:27:00.000+08:00

yumyum...
*licks lips*

Hey Dr Tan... greetings to you =) Hope u had a good call, and a good dinner =)

Happy Birthday Guohao!

2007-11-25T00:18:00.000+08:00

Birthday boy with the pretty PINK shirt we bought for him which was a tad too small and but did a good job of accentuating his buldging pec majors which is y he refused to button it up! =p

I shall be nice and not post the photo with the shirt buttoned up lar huh...

(if u want to see can always approach me!)

*yawnz* me is tired...
Me love my CG... thanx guyz... for tolerating all my nonsense in the day (and night)

AH next week...

sianz......

all is settled

2007-11-24T18:17:00.000+08:00

I must admit I am quite pleased. Hopefully no more sleepless nights, and I need to muster more motivation and energy to study for the next few months.
And... Let's just see how things go =)

A tribute...

2007-11-21T23:38:00.000+08:00

Cheer up ZJ buddy:

You can remember him only that he is gone,or you can cherish his memory and let it live on.

Orchard in the rain.

2007-11-20T23:45:00.000+08:00

Marks about 15 weeks left to MBBS and given my current standards I am so going to fail. Bah.

Didn't stop me from enjoying a wonderful evenin post end-of-posting test! =)

Heh... Thanx to u guyz for the company! Happy belated birthday George, and kudos to ZJ my all time aunt agony who has been listening to me talkin about the same issue for like... AGES...

Heh... Thankew mate~ He's like my big kor kor who is givin me advice =p Enjoy ur emed posting!

Photos to show off my fantastic evening...

Macaroons... My first time eating them! The pretti white one with pink dots called scarlet is the all time best!

Photo Whoring with food =)

Baileys souffle... according to ZJ... its yummy-licious! The way to eat is to take a photo, dig a hole in the centre... then pour the baileys in... then tuck in! Spoon-lickin-good!

My gentlemen for the night...

And the nicest shot of the night! =) all thanks to my characteristic "Haoyun" pose =p

睡不着

2007-11-18T01:32:00.000+08:00

今天，我心情怪怪的。
我想了一个晚上，
到底是真的行不通，还是我自己没有勇气呢？
为什么我人长大了，却不敢面对自己的感情？
以前的事，真的对我有那么大的影响吗？
还是，我只是顺手把它用来当借口？
是我自私，害怕自己再受伤害
才会辜负了你对我的好
经过一次的教训，我为什么还不懂得珍惜身边的人呢？
难道，我一定要等到失去的时候，才后悔吗？

我一直以为自己长大了，
看来，我还是个小孩。
我正在努力，摸索，让自己对自己有多一点的了解，
这件事，我一定会自己应付，让自己开心，
因为人生里，还有什么比开心重要呢？
在我正努力的当儿，世界还是会继续转动。
时间，永远都不等人。
到时，你可能已经有了自己的打算，
也可能，事情还会保持不变。

走着瞧吧，
我想，只有我自己做出的决定，才能让自己幸福。
对不起，
希望你会了解。

Abdo pain + back pain

2007-11-04T23:03:00.000+08:00

I am supposed to be studying and doing the writeups (HOW ON EARTH CAN THEY TELL US TO DO WRITEUPS NOW?!?!?!? IN WEEK 4 @%!!#&^@*$&!@*#^%&!#&!#*&!^#$!*@%&*!$">%@%!!#&^@*$&!@*#^%&!#&!#*&!^#$!*@%&*!$@^)

But Greys is really very exciting!!! Argh... I can't wait for the next episode to come out...

I want Meredith to end up with Shepherd!!!

Spent the whole of sunday sleeping bcos I have this horrible persistent generalized colicky abdominal pain since like Thursday! It is constantly there, not related to food intake, not relieved by rest or lying down.

And it seems to be getting worse...

Though my bowels seem to be moving ok...

But I kindof feel a little nauseous and I have LOA

not a/w any vomiting, diarrhoea, constipation

Incidentally, I also have back pain x3/7 which I localize to the level of the T7 or T8 vertebrae! It is also persistently there and not worsened on flexion or extension!

This is really bad....

I hope everything resolves... soon...

I can't keep having this... can't do anything =(

POUT

2007-11-03T17:50:00.000+08:00

amazing I can blog from my PDA! cool...
med revision posting has been on going n given my current standard passing any exams is going to b a complete miracle...
There is just tons of stuff to remember and remembering is no where near to recalling or putting anything into practice!
Its crazy!!!!

*stressed*

2007-10-13T23:09:00.000+08:00

Went for a walk with my parents.
Came back into a house full of... students.
As I stepped in through the door... everything felt so wierd.
Lots of pairs of eyes staring at me.
Maybe I'm just oversensitive.
Seems like each one of them know something about me.
Something about me that I don't even know.
Something.... probably something that I would rather no one know about.
Something.... That I wished had never happened.
Something.... that just makes me wanna run away and hide.

OKAY. STOP BEING OVERSENSITIVE.
STAT.

yes I had the fortune/misfortune of once upon a time having the ex-law club president as my bf.
So now he's in NYC and with Brenda and that is not my problem.
It doesn't bother me (yar.... it doesn't... right.)
Its not my fault either that everyone knows about it because after all he is ex-law club president and dean's lister.
And I can't help it that everyone knows because I also talk about other people's (ex-)relationships.
Since I did it I just have to be brave and admit and move on right?
Probably it was a mistake but can't cry over spilt milk right? just have to move on right?
I will.
Step by step. slowly.
Breathe.

I woke up at 11am today!!!

2007-10-13T22:56:00.000+08:00

Haven't slept till super late in a long long time!!!
I woke up at 11am today =)

completely didn't feel like getting up at all.... my bed was so warm and cosy on a rainy saturday mornin =)

Once again, SIP flew by really fast and it was really cool to be working with a nice team... I suppose when it comes to working life, the people really make a difference and I just keep my fingers crossed that I'll be working with nice people next year!

Back to SGH next week. Time to mug time to mug time to mug.

Breathe.

Tired +++

2007-10-09T22:32:00.001+08:00

I'm too tired to blog.

But anyway here's a photo from Ladies night on Friday =)

Thanx a million Angela!!!

Btw GH... we r still waitin for u to wear the purple wrist band at ward rounds... hey... we dun give u things for nothin k.......

Hey...

2007-09-27T20:51:00.000+08:00

Hello guys... where r u people now?!?!? Never hear from u for so long...

CS: r u still roaming the streets of NYC?? or have u finally settled in?
CL: u never even tell me u r leaving!!! At least ur MSN nick shows u r somewhat settling in....

Take care guys... We'll meet again soon!

Surg SIP

2007-09-23T00:07:00.000+08:00

Just one week... has left me totally tired.
*yawnz*
At least I got to sleep during call... for about 2 hours~ =)
I hope I didn't drool over the pillow cos someone said no one cleared the room before he slept in it.
Oops.
Had some wierd emotions this week... but glad that all seems well now.
It feels... really great to have all these ppl around who care about u doesn't it?
makes life...... a whole lot better...
Lets u smile in your sleep =)
Thanx... a million... to YOU=)

time to sleep
Still gotta go hospital tmr
*yawnz*

Post Paeds OSCE

2007-09-16T00:05:00.000+08:00

A good lunch.

Trying to settle some long procrastinated stuff.

Some sea breeze.

And more good food.

Perfecto.

Photowhoring... Oh I so luv u Jolin =)

Sometimes...

2007-09-14T07:44:00.000+08:00

sometimes... life just isn't fair... somehow...

Sometimes... people do things... I dunno why...

Somehow... things don't always go the way I want...

Despite all... I hope... pray and hope... that the ending will still be perfect...

or at least... acceptable I guess.

Pray.

quick quick quick update~!

2007-09-09T18:27:00.000+08:00

Paeds OSCE looms in one week and I just started a few hours ago.
I am so dead.

On the bright side:
- Had lunch with some good friends yesterday... sorry we were so terribly late!!! Hai~ sometimes we also wonder why we are in medicine...

- Had buffet lunch at Sheraton Hotel today! Amazing food. Totally Amazing.

Now:
- going to watch High School Musical 2!!!!!!!!
- omg Zac Efron *swoon*

Dreams~

2007-09-01T22:51:00.000+08:00

I had a long afternoon nap today (or to put it in other words I wasted the whole afternoon sleeping). But I had a nice long dream too...

Dreamt about my friends... (okay not that many of them), and it was a really nice and sweet dream... the kind that makes u go all soft inside and it feels so real that when u wake up u r still smiling away =)
ZJ I assure u u didn't get murdered =p

I wonder how true it is when people say that dreams are a reflection of your true desires...

But this once again reminds me to cherish all the people I have around me...
Thanx u peeps =)

Pick-up line

2007-08-28T23:22:00.000+08:00

Guy to Girl: Can I be your Schwann cell?

Girl to Guy: Stop it. You're getting on my nerves.

M1 boy: ok u r getting better than ur brother. I think u need a break from muggin =p

Just a short post...

2007-08-26T00:50:00.001+08:00

5 years since we left RJ...

Who would have thought that we would still meet?

Once one of the worst s03 classes...

Its amazing that how many of us r goin to be handling patients eh?

Time sure changes a lot of things =)

Thanx guyz, for all the... unforgettable moments =)

To KP and ZJ, Happy birthday once again =)

Take care, I'll miss you.

2007-08-23T00:15:00.000+08:00

I knew this day would come. I dreaded it.

I pondered for a long time whether I should go to the airport.

I didn't know if it might be... too painful.

But I went, and I'm glad I did.

I hugged u tight, and I didn't want to let go.

Parting with u had never been this difficult....

Never in the 6.5 years that I have known u.

We have kept our promise, one of the few that still stand as memories of our JC days.

When we were all so innocent, so sweet.

I guess... YOU will always be SPECIAL to me.

A better day today...

2007-08-20T23:53:00.002+08:00

I had BK fish and dessert at the marmalade pantry =)
Thanx ZJ who agreed to my request that we should skip the talk =p

The greatest irony of love is loving the right person at the wrong time, having the wrong person when the time is right, and finding out you love someone right after that person walks out of your life. And sometimes, you think you're already over a person but when you see him smile at you, you suddenly realise that you've been pretending to be over him just to ease the pain of knowing that he will never be yours again.

How true...

ShuangBao: In people with dextrocardia, I'm sure the heart will always be right! ;) Luvya gal~

不能说的秘密

2007-08-20T00:28:00.000+08:00

Its been a horrible day.

Another one of those days where my loss of tears exceeds the rate of production.

But at the end of the day, I am still grateful for all my friends.

The people who care...

Its you people that make me realize that I am not alone, and that each day is actually worth living....

I wish I knew of a way to show my appreciation.....

Des: I suppose the way I got to know u is..... somewhat wierd.... But I'm glad we can still talk like we do now. Thanks a million for the company..... U are right... the void will always be there... but friends can help fill it... and make u smile.... even if its momentary =) Btw... her name is Brenda.

**不能说的秘密 is really a good show!!!!!! must watch must watch!!!!!!

The possible scenarios

2007-08-19T16:46:00.000+08:00

All these come from discussion with my friends.
Its interesting what medicine does to me.

Scenario 1:
I had a wound, a deep one, and I sutured it up using PDS (absorbable sutures)
Either my suturing technique was crap, or the wound got infected such that the sutures burst open.

Scenario 2:
I used prolene to stitch.
Tried to STO before the wound healed.
So tada... wound reopened.

Scenario 3:
I'm supposed to be in remission from nephrotic syndrome, but I relapsed after 1.5 years.
Given my age (way way out of nephrotic age group) and the long interval between my initial presentation and my relapse...
And the fact that I needed super high dose prolonged steroids the last time......
I think I need a renal biopsy now eh?
Probably not minimal change disease.
Maybe Focal segmental glomerulosclerosis, which means 2-3 years before I develop chronic renal failure.

I'm not sure if studying medicine is doing me any good. bah.

Just want to forget...

2007-08-19T00:19:00.001+08:00

Somethings make u feel really horrible.

You think u are over it, but in all comes back again, in a matter of, seconds.

I wish all the stuff I learnt before will come back the same way these horrible things do. but sadly, things don't happen that way.

I wanna be strong, I wanna be okay, I wanna move on.
But..... I try.... but I can't.... why.....
Time doesn't really heal... we all know that's a lie isn't it?
Its a not-clean-cut-wound.
It heals by secondary intention.
The wound, it is never really the same again right?
Its formed from fibrous tissue, But the tensile strength is only still a mere fraction of the original right?
And the scar... we can cover it with our clothes, but it will always be there right?

Maybe my twin is right.
Maybe each one only has one true love.
Maybe, i've exhausted mine.

Paintball!

2007-08-09T21:48:00.000+08:00

Yes that's what I spent the whole of NDP doing.

Sleeping, eating and playing paintball! Wheee.......

The jam across the causeway really sucked... but all was good good good =)

Now me got a bruise on my left thigh =p

Can't wait for exams to be over and holidays to come... cos all I wanna do is play play play!

Okok... paeds... hemato interactive tmr. read. breathe. read.

Dinner + Dessert

2007-08-06T15:49:00.000+08:00

Too tired to blog... me no like paeds! *boohoo*

Thanx to the great ZJ for the wonderful dinner + dessert outing...

Sun and moon tofu cheesecake that comes in a cage is highly recommended =) So is 鼎泰丰's chilli crab bao =)

But of cos... as with all meals... good company is the most impt =)

The End of MED SIP

2007-08-04T12:55:00.000+08:00

Finally, I get to sleep-in on a saturday morning.

In retrospect, we have learnt a lot... and loads of credit has to go to our beloved HOs =) Hopefully in a year's time, we will survive our HO-ship better =)

I'll miss Ward 48... definitely

Harry survived!!!!!!!!!!!!! Wheeee!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-07-28T23:58:00.000+08:00

Which Harry Potter Character Are You?
	You are Harry. You're a loyal and courageous friend. You'd do anything to protect the people you love, especially if it'll get you a break from class for a little while.
Find Your Character @ BrainFall.com

What is the point?

2007-07-21T14:42:00.000+08:00

even my spanking new harry potter book fails to entice me now.

I try to tell myself that I shouldn't be so cynical, that really not everyone in the world is so bad.

But time and time again, I get proven wrong.

Reality hits me so hard that I can't choose to ignore it.

Why?

Why is it that we spend so much time and effort, in hope that all our patients get to live well.
But... in my ward... everyone has already been given the death sentence.
Just what r we fighting for?
The good we do never travels.
The bad we do spreads like wildfire.

I hate our profession.
Nothing I learnt in med school ever prepared me for this.
We r doing a service, where the customer is always right.
We are not allowed any errors.
Not a single one.

I feel my insides being ripped apart...
This feeling sucks......
I wonder what my prognosis is....
Maybe I just need a palliative care review. maybe psych review. maybe some haloperidol.

Breathe haoyun.
Breathe.

this is what u do when u r tired.

2007-07-18T23:28:00.000+08:00

Your Birthdate: December 29

You may watch someone from afar before you finally decide to make your move.
It takes a long time for you to develop an attraction to someone.
Generally, you prefer to pick who you love. Anyone who tries to rush you is in for some heartache.

Number of True Loves You'll Have: 3

Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 5

You are most compatible with people born on the 2nd, 11th, 20th, and 29th of the month.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

U know what? this is actually super true!!!! every single sentence of it!!!

(hopefully not the 5 times heart broken part, so far I've only had one and it was horrible!!!! 4 more times and I will have a psychiatric emergency - attempted suicide)

And omg the guys I never worked out with were really not born on those dates... hrm.....

Hey shuang bao: wat about u?

Paediatrician?!?!?!? Whether I'm going to pass my MBBS is a big question mark.

2007-07-18T23:22:00.000+08:00

You Are An ISFP

The Artist
You are a gifted artist or musician (though your talents may be dormant right now).You enjoy spending your free time in nature, and you are good with animals and children.Simply put, you enjoy beauty in all its forms and live for the simple pleasures in life.Gentle, sensitive, and compassionate - you are good at recognizing people's unspoken needs.
In love, you are quiet and sweet yet very passionate. You love easily.You have an underlying love for all living things, and it's easy for you to accept someone into your heart.
At work, you do best in an unconventional position. You express yourself well and can work with almost anyone.You would make a good veterinarian, pediatrician, or composer.
How you see yourself: Sympathetic, kind, and communicative
When other people don't get you, they see you as: Incompetent, insecure, and overly sensitive

What's" Your Personality Type?

Hermione is so pretty!!!!

2007-07-11T23:14:00.000+08:00

After staring at this poster at my bus stop for like nearly a month...

I actually managed to catch it! (even though we missed the first 5 minutes bcos we were trying to get churros. what a pity. didn't see dudley getting all scared off by death eaters)

But anyhow... fantastic =)

Now I can't wait for the book!!!!

Oh no please don't let Harry die....

Still can't decide where I should order it from...

Now gotta go read up on oxygen. argh.

Just one more year...

2007-07-10T22:01:00.000+08:00

...N hopefully it will be my turn to graduate!!!!!

Congratulations gal~ Luvya lots! =)

Btw we must go buy our foreverfriends graduation bears!!!! *grinz*

(from sec4 we say until now leh!!!)

Find your way out of the room...

2007-07-08T00:57:00.001+08:00

When anyone is bored....
Try.
http://www.jigsaw.x0.com/sphere_e/index.html

Then... if u still like the challenge....
http://neutralx0.net/home/esc01.html

Warning: makes me feel totally stupid. boohoo.

Me love banana sauce!

2007-07-06T13:31:00.000+08:00

Had a little mini milkshake party and a dunk in the pool on an insanely hot day yesterday...

Proceeded to tons and tons of games of SuperBishiBashi

(ok I'm really terrible at hand eye co-ordination)

Had a fantastic Peramakan dinner

(omg banana sauce... *squeal*)

Then a lot and a lot of games of SuperBishiBashi and Daytona

Got to play in the playground...

Then someone kept snapping photos of me...

Then I had to go home...

Every day should be like that.

But Med SIP looms ahead.

Dinner @ Yacht Club

2007-07-05T16:50:00.001+08:00

Last Saturday was food galore. Because we had dim sum followed by BBQ dinner at Yacht club! Yumyum~

I finally had the courage to stand on the scales and realize I didn't actually put on any weight in UK! Amazing eh? haha~

And who says the playground is only for kids? =p

Yay... I love my cousins...

SIP starts next week... but that's next week!

Haha~

12 months ahead

2007-07-03T10:56:00.001+08:00

I was just skimming through my own blog, when I realized its about a year old now.
A year since everything horrible happened.
And a year later, I think I'm a different person.
Somehow, just different.
I'm sure I'm not the only person who thinks so.

Grown up? Maybe. Maybe not.
More mature? Maybe. Maybe not.
Smarter? Hopefully, but I don't think so.
More cynical? Maybe.
Put on weight? Definitely.
The anger and hatred? Can't say completely gone.
Ready for another one? Well. Depends. Maybe. Maybe not.

After SEVEN overseas trips in the past twelve months.
(Yes, I just realized, must have spent an insane amount of money)
(I didn't even include my 2 JB trips)
(No wonder all the luggage never left my room)
I think I need to sit still in my room in Singapore for a good 10 months and study.
I'll try.
Wish me luck!

Draft One point zero

2007-07-01T23:29:00.000+08:00

Finally. Draft one point zero.

(Hey at least that's a start okay...)

I am really not the essay type of person, remember how much I hated essays in school. bleah~ Maybe that's why I take a WHOLE day to come up with a thousand five hundred words. Bleah.

Which is why I deserved a fantastic dinner + dessert =)

Marutama Ramen @ Central mall.

The ultimate ramen u can find in Singapore.

Beware: long queues expected.

And Coffee Club Muddy Mud Pie.

Gorgeous.

Plus brilliant company =)

Oh I so miss Beijing...

(I like anytime that I am on holiday and not studying)

All the ingredients for a wonderful evening...

Thankew guys!!!

*grinz*

The report is killing me

2007-06-30T17:18:00.000+08:00

sigh.
I'm so tired...
Dim sum lunch was good.
But now I'm in post-prandial sleepiness.
made worse by major lack of sleep.
sigh.

Help....

2007-06-30T04:47:00.000+08:00

Its an insane time of the night/morning and I am supposed to be sleeping but somehow after turning rounds and rounds in my bed I still cannot fall asleep and the feeling sucks.

I was supposed to have gotten over jetlag by tuesday. And that worked out fine.

Until I developed menstrual cramps on tuesday night and slept through the whole of wednesday.

Tried to keep awake on thursday.

But then slept through the whole of Friday.

And the weekend is fast approaching and I have done nothing throughout the week and the complex aortic pathologies that are waiting to be written about are still hanging in mid-air despite being due last week.

I. m. so. in. trouble.

Anything. Whatever.

2007-06-27T23:54:00.001+08:00

Was feeling so horribly sick last night. boohoo. Wasn't even driving straight and thank goodness mw was there to prevent me from crashing the car.

Had a nice Japanese Dinner last night... although I didn't have much appetite with all those terrible cramps and giddiness. (Next time I'll think twice about taking Norethisterone)

Later at night, went on my quest to find anything and whatever =p

Hope I feel well enough tomorrow. The amount of work waiting for me to do is just amazing. argh.

Back Home. Once Again.

2007-06-24T21:09:00.000+08:00

Just ended what would probably be the last overseas trip of the year. My timetable looks packed. boohoo.

Had some pretty good aeroplane food I must say, though Air France service was really mediocre.

Mixed feelings about being home. Was kindof getting used to the long daylight hours in the UK and the slightly cooler weather. haha~

I guess its just time to prep myself for M5. Somehow. Just somehow.

It was a good trip. Good memories. Lessons to learn.

I guess my return signifies some changes to be made to my life. A new start, a new beginning.

With my trusty companion =)

Blogger in French!!!!

2007-06-24T03:42:00.000+08:00

I'm sitting in Charles de Gaulle airport stealing wireless internet off some lounge. My laptop battery is dying and my blogger appears in French!!! what is this man!?!?!?!

The upside is, I'm eating some really darn good cheese here in the lounge. Perfecto. I'm going to miss all the good cheese when I reach home!!! boohoo...

Went to some Scotch Whisky tour this morning.. haha it was pretty cool! Now I can appreciate whisky better!!!

so after making my last walk through Princes Street this morning and sending Chengyi off at Waverley train station... boohoo... I'll miss u so much gal!!!! I can't wait to see u back in Singapore!!!!

Lunch was at SNAX for the last time. Curry chips! yumyum~

Just walked up and down Princes Street... looked back on the insane Waverley steps I ascended with my 30kg luggage on the first day I arrived... poof... its been an amazing 32 days!!!

With some help from Chengli, lugged my huge purple luggage and two boxes of stuff down Cockburn street for the final time and headed for the airport bus. Passed through the sign to Livingston too! amazing eh...

I checked in something like 40kg of baggage. Its insane.

But anyway... Dimsum on Wednesday! Can't wait!!!

Luv ya peeps =)

Last Breakfast in Scotland.

2007-06-23T16:20:00.000+08:00

Yum yum.

The wonders of good bread, good cheese, good meat and good sauce. All from MnS food =)

Can't believe I'm leaving soon!

2007-06-23T16:13:00.000+08:00

More food photos!!! Lunch from the MnS food to go section was delicious!!! And I got to try couscous *grinz* finally…

We also finally went to see the 3D Loch Ness Experience thingy. I’m a bit sad that Nessie may not exist after all, though deep in my heart I choose to believe that he does! Heh~ I’m such a kid… study all the science but still choose to believe in fairy tales =p
It was a bit disturbing to know that while I was swimming in Loch Ness last week, there were a whole lot of plankton creatures with me as well and probably some even got on my clothes? Oh my… no wonder they had a “Loch Ness smell” after that…

After much contemplation with regards to the really foggy weather, we decided to visit Edinburgh Castle anyway. No regrets! It was beautiful =) Eleven quid per person though! No student discount! Boo.

Thankfully the fog cleared up a little bit and we eventually had a great view from the castle…

Guohao… this photo is for you. You completely missed this and what was inside! Haha~

Checked out the huge Mons Meg as well… impressive!!! Those cannonballs were like enough to kill even if you just dropped them down!!! But then again… no wonder the barrel of the canon burst…. Hahahahaha~

Dinner was some pretty good MnS stuff again~ Yay~ I love MnS… why can’t they have MnS food in Singapore??? We got some wonderful ham and some wonderful cheese and some wonderful bread and some wonderful chutney to make some wonderful burgers *grinz*

Headed off to meet Louise for the last time before I head back to the equator. It was so depressing that there wasn’t even a place to sit down and have coffee that was actually still open at 8pm!!! My goodness… the workers in Britain are some of the laziest I’ve ever seen man! Chengyi says its because of their labour laws or sthing… how weird!!! Gees I will really miss you gal~ I hope you have great fun in London ya? We’ll definitely keep in touch! And this is for you…so no food involved in this photo =)

Got just a couple more hours before we all have to head back to sunny Singapore (hopefully!) via 3 different routes! I guess some 48 hours later, we will all meet again. At home.

Looking at all the stuff around, it seems highly impossible how all of this stuff is going to fit into my luggage and make it back to Singapore. Oh my!!! Panic… panic… panic…
I am so going to blow my baggage allowance… and I haven’t got that much pounds left! *fingers crossed*

Ok time to pack pack pack again. Pack pack pack… And maybe make some breakfast! Yumyum~

I’ll miss Scotland… for all the memories, both good and bad…
I’ll complain about the Singapore sun when I step off the plane tomorrow. It will be too hot.
But I guess after 33 days out of the house, its time to go back… (and start school *pout*)

Maybe I’ll get a chance to blog again later…

For now…

*grinz*

The symbol of hope and dreams...

Being an MO...

Finally... the changeover.

End of HO-ship!!!!!!!!!!!!

Pretti Pink~

colorectal.

Life in GS.

The last few days of ortho......

December 2008

Christmas Eve...

December rocks.

Back to work. Soon.

From the Great Ocean Road...

the 1st day of my favourite month of the year!

First time in Melbourne...

Feeling much better~

Day Two in Sydney

In Sydney!

No more SIPs =(

If music be the food of love, play on.

TimeOut.

Holiday again =)

Post Call

EMO-ing

Commencement 2008

Can't sleep, too many things happening together.

Life of a doctor..

From the student's lounge...

the little things of life...

Sunday mornings

Nineteen

DIM. Day Four.

1st day at work

One week in Singapore

Nepal Trip 2008

just an update

*breathe*

One more day.

3 days left.

I should be studying

CNY. DAY ONE.

CNY.

I have comedones!!!!!! eeek!!!!

0302 = 36 (I think)

Weekend

1401 = 56

I completely forgot about Med MCQ!!!!

I think I'm exhibiting early dementia

The last of 2007

~I'm Twenty-Three~

~Christmas Day~

Last day at the Garden hospital

Early Christmas Celebration~

Its December....

I need a miracle

Amazing stuff...

Happy Birthday Guohao!

all is settled

A tribute...

Orchard in the rain.

睡不着

Abdo pain + back pain

*POUT*

I woke up at 11am today!!!

Tired +++

Hey...

Surg SIP

Post Paeds OSCE

Sometimes...

quick quick quick update~!

Dreams~

Pick-up line

Just a short post...

Take care, I'll miss you.

A better day today...

不能说的秘密

The possible scenarios

Just want to forget...

Paintball!

Dinner + Dessert

breathe

POUT